Quote #43

43Few people reading this might not know what, “Manifestation” is. Reading this might be quite confusing. I’ll try my best to explain the difference between a goal and a manifestation.

In the end, this is only my perspective, maybe you’ll disagree, but it’s all within the individual.

Goal:

1. the result or achievement toward which effort is directed; aim; end.

2.The terminal point in a race.

3. a pole, line, or other markers by which such a point is indicated.

So in the end, the meaning of a goal is the “end result.” If you really think about it, there is no “end result.’ Nothing really ever ends.

There’s is this quote by Albert Einstein, that goes like this…..

“Energy cannot be created or destroyed, it can only be changed from one form to another.”

Therefore each day is a form of new energy, the day is neither destroyed or created. More like the day has just been carried on throughout to the next day. It would only be if time completely stopped all at once. Or the universe ended.

In my mind, a goal is much of a misleading word, life never ends till thyself ends.

The soul within your skin leaves and enters elsewhere. Then to another form of energy elsewhere.

As said before, energy can only be changed to one form to another. The sun rises and then the sun sets. The day is full of light and then turns to darkness. Then to reoccur again. Everything begins and then has to end. The cycle is very continuous, this works with most processes. I could list endless ideas running through my mind. I’ll stop before I get carried away, hahaha.

If nothing where to even begin or start, nothing would have even been created. The universe, to never be born and the life you live at this very moment, to never appear at this time in “now.”

Just sitting within pure darkness, to feel nothing of touch, taste, hear, smell, or sight. It’s very easy to imagine this within my mind, but quite disturbing. In a way, mediation is very similar to leaving your body.

Mediation is a 1 on 1 experience with yourself and soul. Pure darkness and a whole new realm entered for each individual.

The mind is one of the scariest things we possess in this world, much evil can be produced with the mind. Take a look for once, do you see more love or hatred? What energy is greater. What energy do you produce the most, Love or Hatred?

The world may end sooner than expected if we don’t change some things around, for the positive and not the negative.

Each day, we all go to bed and then wake up. But what actually wakes you up? What actually makes you go to sleep? This may be very confusing to some, I speak of the energy that cycles throughout your body.

The energy that makes you run and function each day. The energy that makes you breathe and your heart pump each moment. All of this happens without many to observe or spectate on the situation.

Saying this, were all our own realities. We’re all our own mirrors of ourselves, in the end, all it comes down to is love. The pure energy of love and nothing else. A pure energy of love runs throughout my body.

I breathe in the air, I become the air itself. Being the universe, I eat plants from the earth, that contain energies. The sun itself grew all of these plants. The power of the sun could be compared to a god of some sort. The sun is literally one of the greatest energy forms to ever to be created. We don’t even need fossil fuels, all we need is the solar energy. This earth holds everything within it that we need to survive.

Most just disrespect this world and drag their feet throughout this world. To never realize how mind-boggling existence is itself.

Without energy, nothing would be here. Neither would you be here, we’re all forms of energy itself. All humans acquire a different amount.

The “I” we speak of that controls this energy can do much good or bad in each moment. To focus on your “goals” or not.

In a way, goals deceive your reality of what you thought you were going to achieve. This “finish line” we speak of. There’s no finish line and there will never be a finish line. It’s nothing more, but a continuous process of energy. All moments happening at once, the universe is more in control of anything, then you’re in control of anything.

You don’t even make your own body grown and break down the food you eat. That all just kinda “happens” in the moment. The ego directs you, but won’t always “succeed” you.

Let the universe do its thing and all you have to do is play along and not be in control. If in control and the end result is not what you expected, then it’s much of a false game. You keep falling over and over an over and over.

The ego playing mind games with you, you’re not who you thought to become. Then that negativity will occur. Don’t get lost and fill your head up full of air.

Thyself can only control so much, the moments create themselves, all we do is react. Just let everything happen, how it’s. Go with your frequency and find what you love. Then true happiness will be on your way.

Yes, goals do help you learn in the end, but I believe manifestation is an easier process for all humans to do. Then to set “goals” of any sort.

You don’t know where you will be in 1 year from now, so don’t imagine where you will be. All you have to do is just do it and don’t think about it. Then it will all happen in the process aligning all things and object within your mind into one.

There’s this saying, “once you find your happiness, everything seems to fall into place.” This is a good way to explain what I just said here.

“All you have to do is just do it and don’t think about it. Then it will all happen in the process aligning all things and object within your mind into one.”

Manifest and don’t make hectic goals that will consume your mind. Failure is much of a building block, we all start somewhere within our lives.

Live in each day and improve each day. Then you’ll be that much closer to your “finish line” that we speak of in this “goal” process.

Don’t rush yourself too far ahead of the game, take a look at what is in front of you at this moment. Most likely, you could get lost and not pay attention to what you’ve missed.

My thoughts often are all over, but this is the best way for me to express my feelings in words, no format is followed. All I do is type what my mind thinks, it’s as if this mind, I possess isn’t my mind and someone else is whispering all of these thoughts into my mind.

Then I apply these thoughts down into paragraphs of some sort. I could be typing this up forever, at times I have to calm down and stop talking too much, hahaha.

Now I’ll try my best to explain how to create a manifestation within your mind.

manifestation:

1 A manifest indication of the existence or presence or nature of some person or thing.

2 A manifestation is the public display of emotion or feeling, or something theoretical made real.

3. A clear appearance, expression without words.

4. An appearance in bodily form (as of a disembodied spirit)

This all has to do a lot with your intuition/heart and soul. To trust everything or don’t that’s all up to you.

Remeber all energies, thoughts, and emotions will come back to bite you again one way or another. Like I said in the past paragraphs. Energy can only be transferred or carried on, that’s it. Never destroyed.

Think the emotion, then the emotion is put into play or ignored. Everything is a process of some sort. All leading to another process and never-ending. Energy in all forms, coming from all directions to barricade thyself.

I’ll try my best to explain the process of a manifestation.

1. You have to visualize it. Imagine all the possibilities that could happen.

2. Hold that thought you have for a while within your mind, process the thought and make sure you wish to continue with this thought.

3. Put some emotion towards this thought you hold within your mind. (Feelings/Energy).

4. Repeat this process, until you truly believe you can accomplish this thought. Remember to never give up, unless you truly wish for nothing to do with this thought. The holder will know correct from wrong.

In the process of this manifestation, you have to behave and act as if you already have achieved this thought.

After all of this, just let your mind be free and let everything go. Become the universe itself and achieve anything you wish.

It has taken a long time for me to truly understand this process. My best way of explaining all of this is through emotion itself.

What I mean by this, is every moment that happens within your life. You’ll feel a certain emotion towards everything you experience. With all 5 senses, each person will feel something different. Interpreting that moment into a different moment than the person next to them. Maybe a thought/reaction similar or close, but nothing exactly the same.

We all think the same and look the same, it’s just the mind that separates all of us. Some put action towards their thoughts, others just ignore them like they never even happened.

What person do you wish you were, your thoughts are your greatest reality. In the end, your thoughts are nothing but a mirror of yourself.

The things you think about, are the things you’re. If you’re attracted towards one thing more than another, it’s more than likely about yourself. The person trapped within this body. The things that cannot leave without expression or action.

My art is a great example of a manifestation.

“I never know why I decided to draw or paint a certain image. In the end, it’s as if the image decided for me to draw it then I decided to draw it myself.”

I always imagine what the “final” picture will look like at the end. I always stop myself, though, the reason why is because there’s no reason to be doing that. You live in the moments of life, not the future of life. If you live the future, you don’t even live in the present moment at all. A very ironic idea.

I’ve learned this, from my manifestations and thoughts. I’m willing to share my thoughts without greed and only love. I only wish for more people to achieve what they “dream” of within their mind. Don’t let anyone stop you, remember if anyone does. In the end, it’s no one’s fault but your own. You’re the controller of this life and no one else.

In a way, each thought is a little form of a manifestation. It’s just most don’t seize to manifest anything beyond thought or belief.

Your mind can literally take you over, it’s the scariest thing to overcome. Each thought is a manifestation of some sort. If you think to be negative you will be negative. If you think to be positive you’ll be positive.

Manifest beautiful things in this world, not negative. I guess in the end the perspective of “negative or positive” is on each individual. We can not all agree on everything 100%. All I have to say is this.

“The only thing that will heal or “fix” any problem is love. Nothing but a pure connection of straight love energy. An energy of love to each human being would progress in not as much harm as there is now. It’s only when love is the last option we will choose to love. When love runs out, it’ll be too late, let’s not make it be too late. For love is the strongest energy we possess. It can “heal” anything. Love is the only option in my eyes.”

All of this corruption is not needed. Take a look at yourself before you ever say anything. That voice you hear, do you actually agree with what it says or do you just agree with it to go along.

Your voice can only get you so far, in a positive way or negative. Both are given credit. Choose what is better for you in the end. Manifest what you wish for and listen to within your mind. Don’t let it take over you, be the controller of your mind and achieve great things. You’ll be surprised at yourself with what you can do.

The moment you achieve “success” everyone applauds you, but in the end, only you know what is correct or not. Don’t follow the crowd, instead be yourself. Define yourself and don’t let others define you. Shine like a diamond and show all your faces, some will appreciate you and others won’t, It’ll be their loss in the end.

Follow and manifest those dreams you wish to be.

Good luck manifesting everyone! 🙂

Much love and I only hope the best for everyone.

 

 

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Update on the drawing, look closely.

DSC_0087This was the progress of the drawing yesterday morning. Took a picture of what has been finished so far. Started this sketch on Friday. Will most likely finish this sketch soon, within a week. My guess is today.

I can feel the progression of my craft. Drawings usually take me longer to sketch, this one was quite fast. I entered the “art nirvana” multiple times throughout drawing this.

Yesterday I played around with the sketch as well, I like to say play and not work. Art is nothing much, but play and nothing close to work. At least in my eyes. Don’t rush the things you enjoy doing, it’s greater to live in the moments, each one the same as the last.

Appreciate what you have, for only another person dreams of what you complain about. The mind is easily thrown off. It takes much willpower and all the power you have from within, to manifest the thoughts and dreams you desire.

Control this energy I speak of and anything that lies within your heart/soul is possible.

This sketch would have taken me weeks in the past and I’m guessing today I’ll finish the sketch. The art I used to create was much smaller as well. With time you’ll do nothing but improve or decrease in progress.

Went into work earlier than usual. Got done early, have time for a few more hours.

Remeber every little bit of improvement matters as much as the last. If you were to add up all the little moments, they create the bigger picture.

If you give up, there will be nothing much but an undesirable picture, a drag within your life. Similar to shackles tied to your ankles and then you continue walking throughout this world.

All the thoughts and emotions felt, will affect your reality. What you choose to think and feel is all up to you, it’s for you to decide. No one else but the individual.

The full drawing will be posted soon. Keep your eyes out. 😉

As of right now, what does your mind, imagine within the image?

Take your time and don’t worry to rush, be free within. When you look at art, the images duty is to hypnotize you, hahaha.

Imagine what the drawing is thinking when you stare at it, hahaha. Just kidding, being crazy. Being serious in the end, hahaha. Just being me.

 

 

Started a new drawing, what do we have here?

DSC_0084Here’s the progress of the new drawing, I’ve added a little more than what is shown here. Played around with this draw the whole weekend, quite a few hours put in so far. The weekend was full of artistic energy and creativity.

Sorry that I got too carried away and too anxious to take a picture sooner than I did. Should have grabbed my camera halfway into this. Was to in the moment, hahaha. What a great excuse.

It works though, it’s in the moments the art is created. Every moment is precious for it could be a different moment than the last. Creating the drawing into a whole new drawing every time. The possibilities are endless/ infinite.

Time is a very tricky thing, we all need more of it and there is never enough hahaha, even though we all possess the same amount of hours.

Now, I’ll continue working on this throughout the day today. Let’s see what we come up with.

As of right now, what image do your eyes, imagine when looking at this drawing?

Late 20th Birthday to me! -(02/01/1998)- “Special” -[Question and Answer]- Ask me anything you wish….

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I’m an artist that lives in North America, in the United States. I live in a small town of not that many individuals. About 16,000 people so not a lot, but then again it’s a good amount. Each person is like a ghost walking throughout the streets, you never really know each individual, but can observe and feel the presence of their energy, each person having their own aura.

I’ve been creating art for the past year now, in a serious way. When people ask me “What do you do for a living.” Well first off, that really shouldn’t matter, should it? I could be a bitter soul and full of hatred and have all the money/ fame in this world and nothing would change. I would still be who I’m today.

So my answer to this question.

“What do you do for a living.”

Well I breathe, just like everyone else does and I eat/ go to the bathroom. Oh and I sleep sometimes too. My point is, I’m nothing but human. I happen to make art for happiness and I’m lucky enough that I can make it into a career in the future. The goal is a full-time career, well that’s the dream.

This dream lies within my hands and the same with all the people reading this. It’s all of the energy put towards the craft, every little bit matters as much as the last bit. If it wasn’t for each transcending moment, you wouldn’t be here at this very moment. Every second put into my art means that much more of an improvement. Even if I “fail” at a drawing. It’s still an improvement.

I look at my art as play and not work, you don’t get paid for something you enjoy. Then this is called “work.”

You only get paid for something you don’t enjoy because then there is no need to be doing it, if the only reason is for the money and nothing else. Then it’s nothing more than a duty.

No one pays the children to go have fun and run around outside. So, therefore everything I do is out of my imagination and nothing else. It’s all just for fun. All being an act of play at the end.

All of the money is extra, the thing I care most about. Is the energy people give me towards my artwork. The expressions as well, So I guess the new energy and the love that art creates in this world.

It brings a whole new energy to this world. We all have different energies to offer the world. Remember to not be so locked up and share your state of mind in this world. Even if hurts, in the end, it’s better to be a “real” you than a “fake” you.

Here I sit typing up this blog, aging every second that passes by. To never grasp any moments that pass by but only to live in each moment the best I can. The imagination lets you “remember” past times. This is nothing but your imagination, all of these mind games I tell you.

Doing this can be scary or pleasurable. It’s always the moments with the most energy that you never forget in your lifetime. The happiest and the saddest moments, usually those moments are imprinted on the brain.

It’s the way you stand back and observe each moment, there is yin and yang in all situations. The individual just needs to see the deeper message or meaning. We need more of this yang. The greater energy out of the two. Positive energy will force out negative, it’s just more negative energy is flowing around this world at the moment.

It’s all on each individual to create each moment.

No one is perfect, I always attempt my best with my imagination. I don’t always create the piece of art I manifested within my mind, but I’m happy with it. The next time you can improve even more, learn to manifest even greater.

It’s best to live in the moment you physically are in, at this very moment and no other moment. If you live in a different moment of time and your mind isn’t even in the “now”, you can’t even appreciate what you see at this very moment. Destroying the purpose of life in a way. All of this is very ironic.

Don’t live in regret and choose to live in the “now.” To dwell on past moments is much of a bad idea. Nothing can be fixed or changed, just reflected upon.

As I stare into the distance, it has been a year and one week since I decided to become an “Artist.”

Yes, this is a picture of me, I don’t post pictures of myself quite often. Here is a glimpse of my backside, hahaha. 😉 You get a little picture of my side face.

Now here I’m at this very moment typing this. If it wasn’t for the moment in my mind, that I decided I wanted to go full out on this “art’ thing. I wouldn’t be here at this very moment typing this. It all would be nothing but a “dream.”

Here I’m happier than I was last year, many things positive and negative occurred within this year of my life.

I really don’t wish to speak of myself, I wouldn’t know what to tell you. I never really have anything to say, unless I’m talked to or if people ask me things.

Yes, I do talk a lot but most of the time to myself. As we all do, I probably just do it more often than most so, hahahaha.

With time and experience, the universe will create my future, all I have to do is play with the universe and not give up. Listen for the signs when they’re there and follow through. Don’t ignore my intuition, heart, and soul. For these things will truly guide me throughout my life. It’s all in the energy you’re feeling in the moment that creates the next moment.

“Chaotic Shapes” aka “Brandon Knoll” is signing off here, ask me anything you please. It can be something as simple as 1, 2, 3. Or possibly a question as complex as the creation of this universe. I don’t know the literal answer, hahaha. I just mean a question that’s very complex and mysterious. Love to have conversations with people who are interested in the same thought patterns as me.

I’m ready for all people and types of questions, don’t be too scared to ask anything. Nothing is too weird/strange or abnormal for me. I accept it all, hahaha.

I’m no greater than you, all of us are equal. All I happen to do is create some art and besides that, I’m a happy and humble soul.

All I wish for is peace, love, and positivity from each person.

Ask any question as you please.

Go……..

 

Quote #42

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The other day this thought/ quote went through my head.

My mind is a very curious thing. At times I don’t understand or know where the thoughts or ideas come from. They just kind happen.

My goal as an artist is to create ideas and art so crazy that even myself questions my own ideas. To be so creative it could bring the unknown and unthought of. The imagination can take you quite far. Much out of this reality.

When drawing or in deep thought, my mind will tell me or give me ideas. I write them down instantly or draw a little sketch out in my mind or on some paper. So I don’t forget them, the mind is moving so fast it is easy to forget something.

Subconscious thoughts are the creative inside thoughts, being you in the end. The things that interest you. The things that make you happy. Things you’re curious towards.

Then there’s the conscious mind that is in contact with you at all times. This thing we call “the real world.” This mind is here all the time. Some might not be familiar with the term “subconscious.” I’ll try my best to simplify an example of what this word means.

The “Subconscious mind” is the mind you enter when you’re out of your body. Thinking about the things you shouldn’t be thinking about. We all do it, it’s just many don’t notice. Take some time to take a journey through that crazy mind of yours. All through those thoughts and dreams that you see. Swimming throughout your mind, entering all parts.

We all use out ‘subconscious minds” in different amounts. I happen to be an “Artist” so my time is spent thinking about crazy unrealistic things. If someone tells me “That is not realistic.” Then that makes me want to do it even more.

Art isn’t supposed to be realistic. Nothing is realistic.

Certain individuals can enter the subconscious easier than others. I’m not saying certain people are “better” than others. It’s just some think a lot more than others.

In the end, we can all create art, you just have to apply yourself. An art of being yourself and being happy. Art can apply to anything in the end. Being yourself is a form of art, you have to act everything you do every day. Without action, we would all be nothing but puppets or sticks with strings.

There’s this voice I hear or the maker of these ideas, I came up with a name.

I’d like to call this voice/ idea maker in my mind. The “Higher Self.” The self that usually doesn’t think. Most are engaged in all different things in this world. The brain is very fair and works with you, it can let you do anything you wish. It’s all up to the user of the brain. The soul or “energy” powering each individual.

Few times I forget my thoughts and sketches, I hate when that happens hahaha.

Here’s an example of “color”, I can share within my mind to make you question the everyday colors you see.

Here I sit typing this at this very moment. The computer I’m using is the color black. The mouse I’m using is red. The sweatshirt I’m wearing is purple. The banana sitting next to me is yellow.

What I’m trying to say is each “item” or “individual thing” has its own color. A color, but also a shape as well. When I tell you a word, usually you’ll think of a shape for that word. Some expression or emotion of some sort.

Each color represents a different emotion, shapes do to I guess. I would assume so in a way.

When I think of all of the colors, I usually think of fruits and veggies. I’ll name the colors and a fruit for each.

Red- Apple, pepper, tomato, cherry, strawberry.

Yellow- Banana, pepper, lemon, pineapple

Blue- blueberry, grapes, pomegranate

Green- kale, cucumber, pear, kiwi, peas, avocado

Orange- Pepper, orange, carrot, sweet potato.

Purple- Grapes, fig, plum

I eat a lot of these fruits and veggies. The rainbow has all these colors, it’s very interesting because all the colors we see around us are the colors of the rainbow. Vibrations and light create each individual color. Tones and tints can be added to each color to lighten or darken the color. The light on earth can do that too, it’s that powerful. Hahahaha.

The universe is an artist itself. Creating all the colors and shapes we see now. That produces a lot of energy each day. I might sound crazy to most individuals but what’s new. I have heard many opinions and words of others.

It just amazes me that each item has its own color and shape. Why does each item have its own color and why that color. Why not a different color or shape. I don’t understand hahaha. Yes, I’m very crazy and I accept that.

The reason why I’m thinking of colors to this degree is that of fruits and vegetables.

Each fruit has a color and each vegetable has a color. The colors found in fruits and vegetables are found in the world. This makes sense in my mind, hopefully, it does in another. If not, this is an interesting story that I shared.

My last thought. This is quite confusing, but I’ll try.

Paint, each paint has its own color. When you mix paint it changes color. So in that moment of time, does the light in the atmosphere bend to that color at that perfect time? Aligning the colors to whatever it becomes. In a sense messing with time itself.

Art lets you create a past, present, and future all in one.

In a way, this is the creation of life you can say. Each day the sun shines down and paints a beautiful array of color all across this beautiful earth. It’s not”our” earth no on posses anything. We all just put labels and such on things. In the end, all we possess is this soul and not even this body.

Being an artist you can imagine things most don’t. Similar to a lot of these words I’ve just said. All individuals are an artist, its just only a few express themselves to this world and most stay locked up inside instead.

Remember anything is possible don’t give up on your “dreams” create your dreams into this reality one way or another.

Giving up is for a coward, giving up is always the easiest, giving up takes less energy than any energy used at all. If all you can do is drag yourself, you drag yourself across the floor. Each step adds to the last, to fall down the steps is not wished upon. It’s only the ones who get back up that make it in this life.

Believe in yourself and have faith in yourself, or don’t even attempt at all. Go 110% or don’t even try at all. There is no need in wasting time if you do something you might as well go all the way, then half way or part of the way.

Here’s one last thought to mess with your “subconscious mind.”

“Imagine if you could control the colors and shapes of your reality. Everything that you see, you can create within your own hands. Anything is possible and all ideas can happen. Art is a perfect example of this. I literally can draw whatever shape or color I want. Creating my own reality, in the end, all within my hands. Nothing is here to stop you, but yourself and the negative thoughts, destroying your self-image.”

 

Mandrillus sphinx “Growing Refelction”

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This drawing is finally completed. On Monday is when all of the coloring was finished. Just had many other things going on and couldn’t post until today.

Like I always say there’s no reason to rush the process unless you are rushing yourself. All you have to do is breath and take it easy, everything will follow through just be patient.

Today I’ve sprayed the drawing and took a picture as well. The picture you see now.

All of these little processes combine into this bigger picture. In the end, creating all the hocus pocus/art we conclude to seeing in this final image.

This is a drawing of a “Mandrillus sphinx.”

I call this “self-reflection.” Don’t normally have much of a story to share behind most of my pieces. There’s more of an emotion, similar to strings being played on a guitar.

I’ll share a little bit of what I’m thinking on this one.

The story of this piece of art can resemble a reflection of what has all happened in the past year or so.

It has been about 1 year since the first drawing I posted/created. To begin my journey of becoming an “artist.”

I checked the date of the first drawing I made when I started my journey. It was the 14th so in 6 more days.

If you have been following, I’ve had this blog for about a year now. It’s been a very fast year. I remember drawing the horse like it was yesterday.

The first drawing happened to “break the ice” that’s a good term I can think of.

I faced many fears and let go, just to create art and not worry about the end result. But care more about the process. Don’t have fear when I place the pencil on the paper.

Challenge the reflection I see and show what I’m worthy of. Instead of giving up in fear and turning the opposite direction, running away from the problem instead of facing it. Causing more problems in the long run than “fixes.”

My goal in art is to feel a nirvana for art and believe anything is possible. To create art and believe I won’t make “bad art.” Your mind messes with you telling you what is correct or not correct. Either way could be correct. Art is an example of that analogy.

Nothing is bad art it’s just the way you interpret each piece of art. People give me all different thoughts towards my art. You need this to grow as an artist. I never know what to think about my art or myself, I just do these things to do them. In the end, I’m all of what I do and create, so are you. Be original and have faith in yourself as a person. Don’t give up on yourself, there’s never a reason to be found.

The more I progress the more I improve artistically in all areas and aspects. There are just times my mind overtakes me and tells me to give up. Usually, in the end, I don’t give up became art is the only thing I have. If I give up on art, I would have nothing in a way.

All I’m focusing on is being happy. Art adds to the happiness, it’s something that I can do that I enjoy.

Without art, I would be lost in this world. I would have no direction or idea where to go.

Instead of harming myself or hurting others I use art to release my negative energy.

Each sketch or line is the structure of what I feel. I don’t know why I create a certain shape or line, it’s all just in the moment of what my emotions tell me.

Same with the color it’s all in the moments and ideas within the brain. A manifestation of creative ideas applied on paper.

To be creative you have to enter the subconscious mind. It’s quite easy for me to do that. Art helps me express my crazy subconscious thoughts. I feel as if I’m living in another world compared to most. The mind of “artists” are quite crazy, or maybe it’s me just saying that having an opinion. Who knows.

It’s all about the focus and control of your energy if you’re delicate with your energy you can accomplish whatever you desire.

So I guess to simplify what I just said, everything you see in this image is a reflection of myself. Being who I’m today. In the end, it’s best to turn the negative into the positive.

Everything you wish for is within your hands, it’s just most give up and don’t see what they’re capable of. Remember to not give up on yourself.

This is a reflection of “thyself.” Being me in the end. All of the good and bad put together into one image.

We all will have crazy lives, that’s just how the universe plays its games. The way you respond to the situation will create the outcome of the moment.

All of my emotions are put in my pieces of art. This one can show what I feel within this year. This is what I look like.

This image may be horrifying or beautiful to you, either or would work in my eyes. Honestly, it’s a bit scary looking, but very pleasant at the same time.

I guess it will just be the way you interpret the image yourself.

This is a drawing of a “Mandrillus Sphinx.”

To me this animal is a beautiful animal, I would love to be one for a few days. Hahahahah.

The face is a beautiful color. This animal would be interesting to encounter, but there’s no need to bother them.

Enjoy the drawing as you please, thank you for viewing this piece of art.

Have a great day everyone! 🙂

I appreciate everyone who observes my pieces of art and reads everything.

Much love ❤

1 Year Anniversary/Milestone. (Thank You)

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So it has been a year apparently, this is what WordPress is notifying me with. 1 year, that wasn’t that long ago. I remember the day making this blog, it felt like yesterday. Others have helped me get where I’m today.

Life is nothing much but a team effort, with just yourself it’s quite hard to accomplish anything. Someone will help you at least one way or another. Throughout this year, I have got a lot of help from many people. Without these people, I wouldn’t be here at this very moment typing this. Possibly doing something else and not even focusing a single amount of energy towards art.

I remember all the times I didn’t create art at all. Those were the worst times, things always had a negative energy towards them. I walked around angry and depressed at this world. More lost than I’m now. We’re all lost humans, all lost in our own ways.

Have it be emotional problems, health issues, insecurities…… etc. I think most will understand what I’m saying. We’re all prisoners of our own minds. All sitting within a chair in the middle of a dark room to see nothing but pure darkness. Every thought and memory to creep up on you. As if nothing but words and visions are monsters attacking you while you defend them off.

Visions are played through your mind over and over to never forget. It’s only the things you wish to forget that you don’t forget, how Ironic. The mind is a tricky thing.

Throughout this year, I have learned quite a lot. In all different aspects of life, good and bad. That’s just how it’s. Moments will not always be great, but just attempt to make them greater than they seem to be.

Saying this, art has found me in life. or maybe I found the art, who knows. I guess either way works if you think about it.

Now I sit here, 1 year later from the day I typed up my first blog post. An individual who didn’t know what he was doing. This person was so dazed and confused they didn’t know what right from wrong was.

First Blog post: VVVVV

(Recommend reading this, will know me more as a person and understand more.)

https://chaoticshapes.com/2017/02/02/first-blog-post/

The reason why I say this is this.

“Everything I have done in my life, each person has something to say about it. Each definition of their thought being their own. Then there are my thoughts, my ideas, and my emotions. Never two humans alike, it’s as if you caused an offense of some sort. By speaking your state of mind. Being your original self and not a copy, creating your own destiny and not following a path someone gives you. A map with an X marks the spot. If you happen to do anything that someone doesn’t like, the thought they will have towards you will be negative. If I’m happy doing what I’m doing, then there is no reason to stop, people often walk around and tell each other what’s up as if they know everything. If I’m happy doing what I do in the end. Then I’ll continue doing so, even if it means the whole world not accepting me. I rather accept myself than have a bunch of people accept me for who I’m not. Nothing much, but a false reality. happiness is different for everyone and no one will understand but yourself. If it means losing individuals and possessions, then I guess you do that. All I wish to be is happy and that’s it, that’s all I want and nothing else.”

This is the reason why I have changed so drastically in the past year or so. My mindset has changed a lot. It’s all about your mindset and you can accomplish anything you wish to do in this world.

Many will tell you that you can’t do something. With that mindset in your mind, that will just do nothing but destroy you. Take you down and make you feel like a nobody. I’ve learned to turn the negative energy into positive energy. Creating myself into who I’m today. This “Brandon Knoll” we speak of.

All I wish for is peace and love in this world, for the energy of love to spread like a virus of some sort. Nationwide love and nothing else. Peace with all humans. I’ve been told by many that all the thing I think are just “dreams” or “not possible.’ I’m pretty sure all the people that “succeeded” were told this too. So, in the end, it’s nothing but an ego of a person spewing words out of their mouth. Negative energy flowing from all areas. Some people just don’t understand I guess.

All I ask for is Love from each individual, no matter what they look like or sound like. None of that really matters in the end, it’s more about the soul of a human being.

A way I can find my happiness is through art and writing. Sharing my experiences with the world through art. Art is an energy form of itself in a way. A whole new creation brought into this world. Never seen before.

Not knowing what I was doing a year ago, I’ve learned a little bit. You always have more time for learning, no one knows too much or too little. This journey of life will be endless and it will never end, till you make it end.

“I’d like to thank everyone for following me on WordPress and all other people who support me as well. As an artist, you wouldn’t be where you’re if it wasn’t for the people. the people create the artist. So, in the end, my audience creates me. All of you are my “art family” I have good connections with a lot of individuals. Like I said, all I ask for is peace and love.

If it wasn’t for that one day I decided in my mind, “I’m going to be an artist.” Like I said at the begging of this post. I wouldn’t be here or have created a single piece of art.

All of this art I’m about to show you could have just been a “dream” or an “impossible idea” but somehow I sit here typing this.

It’s very hard to process life itself to me, every day I question everything and my existence. Being an artist my goal is to make you question your reality, but also question my reality as well. Be so creative that it takes me to a whole new level, every day I learn something new. I just can’t give up and the progress will keep on continuing.

I want everyone to remember don’t give up on yourself and seek for small improvements over time everything will add up. Just don’t rush the process and let it happen.

I’d like to share all of my analytics with everyone to show the progress and the improvements that have happened in the past year. Not doing this to shine my ego, but to show everyone that anyone can do anything. All you have to do is set your mind to it.

 

Quotes: (Shares) Facebook

On Facebook, I added up the shares on the Quotes. At a total of 516 shares on the quotes. That’s more than 365 so at least 1 share a day. Every share counts, just want to spread the message of love.

Thank you, everyone, for sharing the quotes with your loved ones. 🙂

 

(Views) on the blog.

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Country views:                    (10 Countries with over 1,000+ views)

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Thank you from ALL countries who have visited my blog! Even the ones not on the list. 🙂

 

Now to show the progress of the past year of artwork. Here are the drawings from the past year, I’ll put them in the best order I can.

I’m going to put a picture of each drawing. Then a link to each blog for the full details of each artwork.

If you have missed any drawings and wish to go back. You can do so by clicking on each link under each artwork. Throughout the time you can see the improvements. These are in order of creation.

 

 

 

External Beauty "The Horse"
External Beauty “The Horse”

https://chaoticshapes.com/2017/02/14/the-horse-external-beauty/

 

 

Second-Chance
Second Chance

https://chaoticshapes.com/2017/02/21/second-chance/

 

 

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The Heart

https://chaoticshapes.com/2017/03/02/the-heart/

 

 

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Life is in your Hands

https://chaoticshapes.com/2017/03/28/life-is-in-your-hands/

 

 

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Marilyn Manson

https://chaoticshapes.com/2017/04/13/marilyn-manson/

 

 

 

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Iguana

https://chaoticshapes.com/2017/05/15/complete-drawing-iguana/

 

 

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Fox

https://chaoticshapes.com/2017/06/15/fox/

 

 

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Macaw

https://chaoticshapes.com/2017/07/10/macaw/

 

 

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leopard

https://chaoticshapes.com/2017/08/15/leopard/

 

 

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Lion

https://chaoticshapes.com/2017/09/06/lion/

 

 

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Shark

https://chaoticshapes.com/2017/09/24/shark/

 

 

zebra
Zebra

https://chaoticshapes.com/2017/10/20/zebra/

 

 

Multi Dimensional Cactus Landscape
Multi-Dimensional Cactus Landscape

https://chaoticshapes.com/2017/10/31/multi-dimensional-cactus-landscape/

 

 

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Octopus

https://chaoticshapes.com/2017/12/01/octopus/

 

 

black widow spider
Black widow spider

https://chaoticshapes.com/2017/12/22/black-widow-spider/

 

 

Here are all the pieces of art from the year. The average drawing took a month or so, sometimes longer or shorter than a month.

I’d like to say thank you to everyone who has followed and who is following at the moment. wouldn’t be here without you. Thanks for letting me reach this milestone.

Much more to come this year……….

Let’s see what happens in 2018, the possibilities could be infinite. the future is unpredictable.

Quote #41

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Isolation is either your best friend or your worst enemy. Destroying yourself or creating yourself. Which one to do, what one will have the greatest outcome in the end?

Emotions are everything we’re. If a mind isn’t stable the person will not be at their best potential.

Many hide their true reflections behind closed doors. The ironic thing, there’s always a greater version laying within everyone.

It’s just the individual has to reach deep within their soul and find a deeper truth of why they’re feeling this way. What is the energy causing you to feel this?

Once you reflect on your broken pieces of a person, these pieces are fixed. Not 100% but more fixed than before.

Don’t crave sadness, your mind will attract any thought or feeling you wish for it to hold. Yes cry, but don’t become addicted to sadness, you’re better than that. I believe in you, there’s no reason to not have your head up. Don’t drag your body to the floor, live free and do what’s best for you. Not all individuals will understand your state of mind, but that’s okay.

Happiness is worth more than anything, you can’t purchase happiness. If so it’s only temporary and not for the long run. A scary road to be on. Don’t let the negatives take you to the floor.

Happiness is only worked on and achieved within the mind, a real-life energy.

Energy is more real than money itself. Yes, we all need it, but you only need to buy what you need to survive. Money is just an exchange of energy.

Money itself has no worth, besides the stamp on it that says it’s worth something.

There are no stamps on happiness, it cannot be bought, but only worked for within the mind.

The greatest thing to possess. “Happiness” it can take you very far in this world, you’ll appreciate every moment. Even the small moments that don’t mean much will mean a lot to you. Life itself is a precious gift, unexplained but truly amazing.

When you get this thought going through your head

“I’m here and I’m alive, anything is possible at any moment.”

Then that’s the moment you realize that you’re worth something. Life’s not worth throwing in the towel. You can manifest anything you want in this world.

The hands in front of you can achieve anything you desire. It just takes a lot of mind power to show the world your true self.

If all you do is throw in the towel, you can’t even say you tried. All you have to do is at least try and not attempt.

To attempt is to actually do something, but to try is to put forth some effort or less.

We all suffer within our minds, but it’s best to be what we desire. Don’t be at the end without even finishing the race.

If you think of any of these thoughts bellow……

“I’m worth nothing, everything I do is just a waste. Why am I even here, what’s the purpose? Why even try, life’s just worth nothing and I shouldn’t even try.”

There’s much of a ruptured mind. We all seek self-improvement, doing so in all different ways. Find what is best for you. Do what makes you smile and what make peace within your mind.

The mind is the most powerful tool we possess. It’s the only possession you literally posses. All other things are temporary or just there to look at and experience for a little bit.

The mind is here forever, to never be forgotten. Maybe put to the side, but not forgotten at all. It seems like many don’t care, to take care of this person we call “thyself.”

The person reading this right now, as in this “i” is you. You’re in control of your whole life, every thought and emotion is created by you. Someone else does not enter your mind and tell you to feel a certain emotion or think a certain thing.

Only this “i” we speak of is in control of this. Each person gets to determine what’s best for them in each moment. Creating an infinite amount of possibilities for the future.

No one really knows the true answers to anything, we all might think we know, but I’m not sure if anyone does. It’s more of what the individual thinks. Not saying this in a selfish way, but in a way of freedom.

Most of what you think and do in this world will manifest into who you’re as a person. Creating each individual reality, no other alike. The mind turns to play. All actions are only thought before doing.

I would like to say one more thing…

Emotion itself is proof that everything is made up of energy. Scan each person and each person will produce a different amount of energy. Being all different colors and shades. A brain scan of the whole body, if you understand what I’m talking about.

I’d like to leave one last line that I thought within my mind, to make everyone ponder this thing we called “life.”

“Sometimes for some people, it’s so hard that nothingness seems like somethingness. Treat others how you want to be treated. This works for everyone, not just some individuals. You’re nothing special. Just water, bones, and organs with a thought of conscious. Manifesting itself thinking you’re here, but in all reality, it’s just a dream. This reality Is more of a dream than a dream being a dream itself. This life is in full control and all energy is felt, in a dream the reality is similar. This reality is actually felt, a dream is much different often forgotten. We’re all nothing but walking around in a simulation of energy.”

Close to being finished……

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Stopping at this very moment to take a picture, then will continue coloring in the shapes. Thought right here would be a good spot to stop and take a picture.

Have a good sized piece to still work on, taking my slowest time on this part. Each shape that’s colored will either make it or break it. My artist eyes will be scrutinizing each piece and color to make sure it’s “Perfect” in my eyes.

Almost done with this drawing, it has been quite the journey so far with this drawing. My faith within myself hasn’t left me. Usually, surprised with the end result of each piece. The possibilities could be endless.

Never to actually know what it will look like, until the very end. Can only imagine and manifest what it shall look like in the ending process.

Not sure how long this segment will take me exactly, just going to go with the flow and not rush myself or I’ll definitely make a mistake. At times I bite my nails or lips out of nervousness. Been trying to fix these issues, when I get tense creating I have to walk away for a moment and come back.

There’s is no need to get nervous it’s just the mind playing games. You create your own reality, don’t have temporary emotions consume you. Be your strongest version.

Now I continue on with the coloring and see where we get.

With the image being where it’s, what does your imagination suggest this could be?

Sunday Update (Almost complete)

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Here’s the progress at the moment. Added some color Saturday and all throughout the day today. So far I’d say I’m happy with how it has turned out so far.

The main focus of this drawing is the detail as you can see. The depth within the detail makes me quite lost. In a good way, imagine a boy walking down a path. A butterfly happens to pass by the boy, he starts chasing the butterfly and not the actual path.

Creating a new path in all different directions. The possibilities of what could happen are endless. Not a narrow one-sided pathway leading to the same destination every time.

That’s me, that’s how lost I get in my drawings, making each possibility infinite. To question what color or shape to put where. Why is this correct or not. Drawing is similar to dissecting an image with your eyes. Detail is so pure you don’t know what is correct or not.

This is an example of why I like to go abstract, this real reality seems to “perfect.” But then again it’s not. Art lets you create your own outlook or perspective on things.

The hand and thinker within the brain apply imagination to this external world, making it into this reality of a world. Creating a physical new energy form that was never here before, something that’s “Priceless.” Literally a new discovery of some sort, a new species, rock or plant. A wild discovery of some sort. Something that’s “New” and not a “Copy.” A “one of a kind.”

In my art, the reality is lost. There is no way of turning around. Detail is all about performing at the best you can. Abstract lets you do things that most don’t think of, it’s at times my mind goes off similar to a light bulb when I get creative genius ideas. It always is depressing when you forget your most creative ideas, hahaha. Try to have a journal or notebook with you at all times. Or even something as simple as your phone.

Immediately write down or sketch your idea and manifest it into this real world, it’s only the “crazy ones” who try things differently than everyone else. Be that “crazy one” be original and go out there.

For all, we know that “One stupid idea” could have changed the world or your whole life for eternity. Don’t let the mind control take you over.

Express and go with the flow, who cares the art is for yourself in the end anyway or it’s more of a duty.

Art is magical if you think about it, one single color or shape could change the whole picture forever. Each drawing could be a different color of tones but similar colors, like pop art.

Just trying to create ideas and help peoples minds with their imagination. Will color some more on this tonight as well.

Tomorrow is a new whole art day. It’s the night where I live so in the morning it will be another day of art. 😀

Some of you will be reading this and looking at this while I’m asleep. In another reality of a dream, having fun with the imagination there as well as the “real world.” Dreams are nothing but the Internal you, everything that you’re and think of creating you.

Enjoy the drawing as you please, comment what you see in the image if you’d like.

Take your time and observe the drawing with detail, don’t just take a glance and guess what the image is. Let the image take you over and become the image, what do you see?