Quote #45

At times in life, I find myself walking throughout my mind and the destinations never end.

But then I think to myself, why?

Why does my mind keep opening all of these doors? The mind I possess never seems to stop thinking no matter what I do.

I also find my mind quite lost. At times I find myself quite sad or “depressed.” Not saying I want to leave this world. I just happen to be in very deep thought, you can say. I don’t mean to offend anyone is saying this. A deep rest within the mind.

When I search or look for the answers there’s nothing to be found.

I’m being sad and “depressed” for no reason in the end.

It’s all within my imagination and nothing else.

An imbalance of energies within the mind. Chemical reactions I believe.

Each thought you create within your mind posses its own vibration. An example of Energy itself. Thoughts are a very pure, powerful energy towards your mind.

You become your thoughts, you literally manifest each and every thought one way or another.

In the end, you will be each and every thought you think you’re.

For the “real world” to see it or not is your choice.

Hide behind those iron bars of a scared mind. Or go out there and explore to find your “happiness.”

As happiness can only be valued from an individual standpoint. Each person defines their own happiness as each person defines their own emotion. The moment we all posses.

At the end of the day, there’s no place to be designated. We all act as if this life is one big competition/race.

No one takes a break and it’s nothing much, but people “doing.” It seems to be that few people contribute to “doing nothing.”

If you “do nothing” you compare yourself to others. This “nothing” of yourself.

This is all from the individual’s perspective. What their image of “doing nothing” or “doing something” is.

I could care less what you do with this life. Just don’t hurt or harm any others in the process. All you have to do is spread love and positive energy. Don’t be the negative energy sucker.

Don’t compare but be better than who you were yesterday or it’s nothing much but a competition your whole life.

In the end, there’s no finish line. The line of finish is when death occurs.

When you die then the race will be over.

Stop “doing” so much and running all over. Take some time to breathe and enjoy the moment, for what it’s.

Who knows, you could die 1 week from now or possibly in 1 month.

Imagine if tomorrow you were told you had 24 hours to live.

Would you regret anything? Possibly everything you have done in your life. Each moment is a moment never grasped again. It’s too late to take it back now or to change anything. Now what.

The things you didn’t do. The things you “could” have done. But you never did. Just because you were all stuck up in this race.

To live a life doing things you don’t enjoy. Or possibly you enjoy every moment. In the process, you continue doing all these actions and moments. Very few days seem to be “different” but many seem to be the “same.”

Work, whatever you do for free time, sleep and repeat this every day for 5 days a week for 50+ years. Then you can enter retirement. When your body is so distorted it’s hard to function. From all of this “doing.” The body never gets a chance to rest.

Then you wonder why so many “lost individual” roam throughout this world. We’re all lost in the end. No one knows wrong from correct or correct from wrong. It’s just what we’re told in the end. Everything has an “answer” of some sort.

Sadness or depression usually is because,

It’s more about people not being able to face this reality of a life.

This isn’t even a great life for some. Instead, it’s something similar to a bunch of puppets with no feelings doing and doing and doing.

We all have an inner self. Just take a look in the mirror and look at everything around you. Then ask yourself this question. “Why?”

To never look within the moment for a greater picture of this life.

We live in a world where the only thing that matters is “work/money.”

Whatever you wish for this life to be. Create that life into this life.

People judge each other and compare off wages and job positions. The more money you make the “happier.”

I’m going to explain this analogy I thought of in my head. It was created a few days ago. I remembered to put it in this quote.

Maybe some will not agree. But here I’ll share it.

“Every emotion in a form is to not live in the present moment. Instead, to live in the past or the future, which is never to be here. The “Now” is ignored. The state of mind is greatest when you reach full happiness or enlightenment. I call this state of mind “Nirvana.” It’s the hardest things to achieve. Most will never “succeed” at this, but many will attempt to.”

When I say this, I’m thinking it’ll make sense to someone out there, hahaha.

If you really think about it. All emotions are based on the current moment. But then again, not. If you don’t live in the ‘Now” any emotion could erupt out of you. I’m done explaining this now.

Back to what I was saying……..

The more advanced job the “greater.”

But at the end who is greater? Who is the best?

Well, there is no winner. We’re all “one.”

The person to the north, east, south, west. They’re the same as you.

The ego will place your value within this world, a positive, loving ego or a destructive self-centered ego.

Only caring about this “I.” There’s no “I.”

But there is a “we.”

We’re all nothing but a huge family. In the end, we all continue to fight and cause problems within this world.

An ego based driven world.

I, I, I, I, I,

“I” hear this enough. There is no “I.”

Only the “I” you think of.

Each other individual has this own “I” they posses of you.

In a way, it matters what you think of yourself. I’m not saying this is an unsecured way.

To live life and not even live your life than to die and all, in the end, no one ever really lived even when they did live. So, in the end, everyone has never been alive. Just “here.”

This life is more of a dream than a dream is even a dream.

All being much of a paradox in the end.

We live life to live life, but in the end very few ever “live.”

You keep learning more facts. Skill wise those things we never learn. You stop learning skills soon after the age of kindergarten. Then it’s all nothing but the same. Yes you learn lots of things. Don’t get me wrong. I’m thinking only a few individuals will understand this.

Your identity is lost. The name really doesn’t mean anything in a way. Besides identifying people. All humans are my family. I accept all humans. Love is the only thing I wish for within this world.

You have to adventure on your own to learn things school doesn’t teach you.

Imagine if you handed a sheet of paper to each child and told them to write what they feel from within. Even adults too. All of us need this.

We need classes on self-love and how to make peace within. Love each other as a nation. Something that will add more love to this world. Positive energy.

School is mostly beneficial for ego and culture. They don’t teach you how thoughts and emotions affect our reality. The connection with nature. This “outside” world.

I feel as if many don’t feel a connection with the world they live within.

If you don’t trust the way the universe works. You can’t even trust yourself.

We learn to walk, read, eat, talk etc…. The basics.

We all learn and some don’t which is okay. We’re all at different levels in life. There’s always time to adventure wherever you wish to. If you wish to improve at something. Do so, manifest those thoughts and put actions towards them. Keep that thought within your mind and let it go into the universe.

We all know how to survive. The definition of survival is different for each person. All you need is Oxygen, Water, Food, Shelter, and Sleep.

That’s all you need to technicality be alive.

Everything else is your decision after that. Whatever you wish to manifest in this life.

The body does everything else naturally.

Similar to how it grows every day without you yelling at it. Or your food digests without you screaming at it. You can talk how you’re talking within your mind. Also, you’re reading this right now. Everything is already there in a way.

The rest is the character and morality. Personality or how a person treats you.

Not the wealth or “value” of a person.

We live in a world where we’re quick to judge. Without saying a single word to each other.

The ego overrides the mind and has to instantly compare.

Why is that?

My mind thinks insecurity within the soul. There is no reason to judge someone unless to compare to thyself.

In the act of doing this, it will lead to nothing but negative energy and unhappiness.

We’re equal including the animals. Nothing separates us besides souls.

Morals and characters.

Karma will come back to you at the weirdest times. You’ll have to take it and create it into a positive outlook.

If not, you’ll attract even more negative things upon more negative experiences.

Whenever I’m having a bad day. I always try to turn the negative into the positive. I’m improving at this daily.

The universe is not that easy. It likes to play games. The way you create each moment is what consumes your mind. Each moment is the same in the end. It’s just the way you react. Similar to the analogy I explained before.

Through reaction, your life will be created. Each experience will create the next step in your life.

Have the step be an intelligent step. Do your best to create the moment a positive moment.

If not it’s okay. We all let loose once in a while. Just don’t let your mind get carried away. Be safe in what you do each moment.

The mind is very powerful. Be careful with what you think and tell yourself. It will manifest in a percentage of some sort.

Fantasy or realistic it will somehow be presented within your life.

Fiction or non-fiction. I never understood this concept hahaha.

Fiction is unrealistic, but then non-fiction is realistic. That makes no sense in my mind.

It literally says non. How is “non” conclude to a world that is “realist.”

Fiction should be realistic. Then non-fiction shouldn’t be unrealistic.

This is how my brain sees is.

Whenever I look at words, my mind slowly processes them. The reason why. Each word has a “sound” of some sort.

I always wondered why some words are silent and others aren’t.

So if you say the silent word. Then you’re wrong in saying this word. People will understand you but not fully.

We’re not all perfect and don’t know an advanced language as some do. All words hold a level from 1-10. All concluding to the same definition in the end. Just having a different order of words each time.

Language has a “proper form.” All language has to be fluent or people will have troubles understanding you.

I always make up my own words, hahaha. People say you can’t do that. Well someone did it, so can I.

I just don’t understand how this works.

People will say. “That’s just the author you can’t say it how you want.”

I would say.

“Oh, well okay then.”

I just look too deep within the lines with all things.

My thoughts are trying to say anything is possible. I guess that’s what it’s trying to say. I don’t know.

Here’s a quote I’d like to share. It’s from “Dr. Seuss.”

“Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.”

Youer, isn’t a word.

He made up words. Dr. Seuss inspires me a lot.

I don’t believe in inspiration, but it helps.

Until you do the work it’s not technically motivation/inspiration.

It just tricks your mind into doing so. You have to put action forth before being “inspired.”

This is a weird way of explaining this. Someone will understand.

You do everything, the person told you nothing. All you did was listen. similar to how I’m talking to myself and everyone reading this is listening to me.

Everyone who is reading this decided to read this. I didn’t force anyone. I appreciate everyone who reads this.

Writing these keeps me “sane” also the intention is to inspire others. Follow your dreams and do what you wish to do in this life.

Motivation isn’t motivation, it’s more of a wake-up call. Realization from others, to tell you there’s more. A deeper and greater meaning to life.

This is my “weird” unique self. My mind is strange. I don’t understand this language. To me, it makes no sense. All words are the same in the end. Most just sound different than the last.

Words can either sound fancy, property, normal, average or “lower level”.

In the end, it’s all the same. The action you do speak more into this universe.

Be a person of value and not “doings.”

Never compare yourself. We all learn new things every day.

All at different levels of consciousness.

Don’t put a label on yourself. Just accept who you’re and be the greatest version you can achieve to be.

If you do compare, you’ll become lost in this world.

We’re all lost in the end.

If we can’t even make peace with each other than there is nothing to learn. Make peace with yourself and life will be so much greater than it’s now. Trust me, or maybe don’t.

Peace comes from within and that’s where it starts to grow.

It’s whatever you decide to do in the end. Similar to what I just said this is nothing but me talking. Someone could say this has inspired them to manifest something great.

I did nothing, it was you that did something, not me.

Be the greatest you that you can achieve to be.

Thanks for listening to me. Technically, you’re hearing a vibration within your own mind whispering you these words, so yes.

“I” did nothing in the end.

You did all of this, hahahaha.

Do nothing, but comparing yourself to where you were yesterday. That’s all that matters.

If you compare to others your whole life. Nothing good will happen. Promise me, happiness will never be achieved.

We’re all “talented” at something. Otherwise, each individual wouldn’t be here. We’re all here for a purpose. Find and create your purpose.

There’s nothing special about me. I’m nothing of a king or ask to be praised upon. I’m nothing but a person as we’re all people.

All I wish for is the people to find peace within each other.

Love starts from within, that’s where you begin.

Love yourself and you’ll love everything around you.

This is not a comparison game.

Be the best you and the greatest version you can become. Then that’s it.

Have a great weekend everyone.

Much love!

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Quote #35

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The raindrop fell and disappeared into thin air. Then arising eventually overtime to come back again.

Emotions come and go just like how the clouds shine and darkness comes to create chaos. It rains then thunders. Then a rainbow appears

Storms and thunder show there’s happiness within all souls, it’s just way, way, deep within their hearts.

Out of selfishness and bitterness, happiness is not shown to the world. Only to be locked up and never expressed to this beautiful world.

Nothings perfect that’s the way it’s, just attempt at your best.

Lessons and things learned. Messages within this beautiful rainbow. Ups and downs, just like a rainbow. The rainbow shows the beauty is within the stormy clouds.

The beauty that shines within this dark world.

It’s just the perspective you decide to follow, life is what you make out of it.

We’ll all cry and we’ll all feel sadness.

It’s not an abstract or weird thing to show emotions. Emotions are normal, you’re a being with a conscious. Not a puppet with strings attached to it, having another perform your life for you. It might seem like that, but you’re in full control.

Without expression what is within you will continue to be trapped.

Cry as often and as much as you need, but remember my friend cry to cry and don’t cry to be addicted to crying.

Cry when needed, not too much. Not too little and neither in between. But what is right for you.

As long as it’s not harming anyone continue to do so. The emotions cannot be locked up. They will continue to burst open like a bottle of water.

The emotions build up and the compression of the emotions force the bottle to explode.

Each emotion is a different color within the bottle. The final equation will define the outcome of the energy released. The burst of the bottle.

Whatever colors within the bottle are the things you need to work on within yourself.

The things that get you angry and hype you up for no apparent reason just because. These are the things to be worked on. The emotions that destroy, these need to be healed and not ignored.

Control your emotions and don’t neglect them in a bad way.

Express nothing but positive energy to the world and receive everything you gave it in return.

You attract what you give out in this world. The universe will pay you back one way or another. Just believe in destiny and don’t lose your faith. This life is similar to one big “mind game”.

If you set your mind to something and don’t give up. Put forth all your energy and dedicate yourself to something that you truly love. There’s no way of “Failure”. Just many lessons learned. We all “Fail”. You might as well fail at something you like performing at. Then to fail at something you hate performing at.

Ignore everyone else’s thoughts, most of them will be negative. They’re supposed to be. Life’s not easy. Every day will be a new challenge. Look forward to each day and you’ll appreciate life much more than you do now.

Don’t let your thoughts consume you.

Crying makes you stronger, you face the problem in that moment but in the end, in sense, the situation should be over.

You’re stronger than who you were before, a blossomed beautiful valley of flowers. True art and beauty were shown. Don’t resist emotions face them.

The water bottle is closed at all moments but somehow still being filled.

An illusion from within. Emotions fill the bottle with no way to enter. An empty area is somehow being filled with nothing but energy itself. Emotions are a 100% proof that everything is energy.

One moment you’re sad. One moment you’re happy. Another frightened. Next, you’re very confused. But then you happen to be embarrassed. Oh, no now you’re worried.

There is no exit or entry. Its flow builds as its frequency adapts.

Each individual will be in control of their own bottle. Or aka. The emotion tank within your soul. It can only be filled so much before something happens.

You can improve or decrease in this analogy. Releasing emotions in a negative way or positive way. Each person will interpret each situation into a different emotion.

It’s a game of balancing all the emotions from within thyself. It’s quite challenging at times, to be honest. But that’s what makes it so fun.

Like I said before cry when needed, not too much. Not too little and neither in between.

Whatever is correct for you and only you.

Don’t keep anything within you. The water bottle will overflow and be disrupted.

You’re the controller of this water bottle no one else.

Good luck on the frequency control of your water bottle.

Your emotions will build you or suck you down into the ground like stepping in quicksand or muck.

Over a long period of time, everything decays. Just be your strongest version you can perform at and You’ll love every moment of life.

To be set free or be locked up for an eternity.

Multi Dimensional Cactus landscape.

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Here is the final and complete painting. I had a lot of fun creating this one.

The feel with paint is a lot different than colored pencils. More child like and less weight on the paper. More free you can say.

When thinking about popular or well known art pieces usually they are paintings. I think I know why, it makes sense in my mind. The canvas cost quite a lot. paint is expensive. Paintings just seem to value more in general. That could be why. Looking at paintings up close is very interesting. you can see every stroke and emotion put into the canvas.

With a drawing you can’t really see where the person started or the strokes, but still as interesting. Don’t get me wrong.

I wish I could paint more after making this, in the painting mood now. Only if I could not care and paint on canvas after canvas. I’ll start painting on things besides canvas, it’s a thought hahaha.

This is a painting of a few cacti, in a field. If you look closely at all the details and colors, using your imagination. You can create a solid picture. I will not tell you what I have painted in the background. That’s for you to create within your mind. What would the purpose of art be if you were given the answer every time.

The guesses for this painting were all over the place Like usual. A few people had a very intricate description of what they saw. On the previous posts. Very good eyes you have, artists see alike.

Your assignment is to look at this painting and create whatever picture you want in your mind.

If you don’t see a cactus at all or anything else. That’s okay, all I ask for is for you to enjoy my work.

If all you happen to see is a bunch of crumpled up colors so be it. Anything is possible. like I always say, my art is neither correct or incorrect. It’s whatever the viewer imagines.

I can say everything I want, but it won’t matter in the end. because you won’t see what I see. You only see what you see. We’ll all see different colors, shapes and figures.

Goodluck.

 

An array of colors.

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Right here seemed to be a good spot to stop and take a picture.

There’s just enough left to paint where I think I’ll have it done next time I post. Not going to rush this, as normal. Taking my time.

With the style I have, the figures and shapes might be difficult to make up. That’s where your imagination kicks in and you stand back and take a look for yourself.

What do you see? The way I paint this isn’t really correct or incorrect, not sure how to explain it. Thinking everyone will understand.

Look closely at the colors and think of objects that happen to be those colors. After that the colors turn into solid shapes. Creating the picture you see in front of your eyes.

But then again, if I draw something not its original color. You’ll never know. The ideas and answers can go on forever. Find one that fits best with you, and stick with it.

The colors and shapes are different for all of us. It’s just how you interpret the picture.

I could explain every little detail in this painting, but if I were to do that it would take a century.

There’s no answer in art, so don’t look for one. Paint as you please and the picture will start making itself in the moment. Be anxiety free and breath. Eveything will be okay in the end.

At times I feel like I’m racing myself to finish the painting, but when I think of an answer, there’s none. Put this into perspective. The moment you create the picture, is the same moment you completed the picture. All moments are the same. So in reality there’s no rush it’s all created in the imagination. To confuse the mind is quite easy, be careful.

Just relax and paint, out of rushing and greed. I’ll ruin the true potential of each piece I make. To never show what I truly have hidden within me.

Enjoy the picture how you please, use that imagination of yours and start bending it around in all different positions.

 

Paint added to the canvas.

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When I applied the first stroke of paint to the canvas, I was feeling iffy on how this will turn out.

Like I said before It has been around 1.5-2 years. Haven’t painted something since I’ve been in high school. Don’t have random canvases and paints laying everywhere. I wish I did, maybe one day.

For art being such an expensive subject. Materials can be costly. Which is very ironic in a way, the starving artist saying. No money, but still somehow can afford expensive art supplies over food.

Never really understood why art materials cost so much, but then again, it makes total sense in the end.

Whenever making art I try my best to apply the rule of no anxiety and just Create. I can’t have a second voice in my mind while painting. The painting just needs to be painted without second and third guessing.

Paint, breath and hope for the best outcome. Never give up, but don’t put too much work into your work. Just the perfect amount where you can go at a constant jog and feel comfortable.

Saying that, here I continue painting this and the future will give us an answer.

As of right now I’m feeling decent about where I’m at. It takes a while of filling in the colors and pieces till everything makes sense. using the style I use under certain moments my eyes get very strained with all the lines and colors.

When that happens, I have to take a moment to breath and realize everything is okay. To paint under pressure isn’t to even paint at all, but similar to forcing a job/duty that you don’t even enjoy. Destoying the purpose of true art.

Use love when creating art not tension and anxiety.

As of right now, what do you see in the image above?

Thank you everyone, have a great evening!

 

Update on canvas.

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I started making a sketch for the painting. I always end up putting too much detail into sketches that are’nt needed. opps more practice time, nothings going to hurt me.

After realizing I was putting too much detail into the sketch. I started just drawing out the bigger parts as you can see. The rest I’ll add as I paint and while I finished the sketch on the canvas.

Finishing the sketch, needed to transfer it somehow to the canvas.

Remembering I have a graphite stick somewhere. I looked for it, found it. Scribbled all over the back of the sketch. Pushed the pencil down on the bold areas quite aggressively.

 

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Here’s what the canvas looks like.

The larger parts of the drawing were showing, not all the little detail. Added that later.

Over time, as I paint, I’ll add little details here and there.

Should have taken a picture, but I was too in the moment of drawing this. Forgot to take a picture.

Took a picture of the final sketch and canvas. Thought it would be interesting to see both.

Empty canvas 10x20cm

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Here we go, I’m going to attempt to create a painting. It has been the longest time since I’ve painted.

I’m neither a good painter or a bad painter. I’ll see what I can come up with. There’s a theme or certain ideas I’m thinking about.

If I fail, I fail. At least I created something.

Something is better than nothing being created at all.

If you ever get artist block just start scribbling like a child with colors with no direction and see what you come up, for all we know it could be a “masterpiece”.

Will create some sketches before I draw on the canvas, Thank you everyone.

 

Leopard

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Here is the Complete drawing. I finished it a few hours ago, I couldn’t spray it right away so I had to wait a few hours.

I’m working on something right now, not sure how I’m feeling about it, but I say that about everything.

I just finished spraying it and this is what It looks like.

I checked last time I posted the start of this drawing and it was one month ago. A month for this drawing isn’t too bad. At least that’s what I think.

In this drawing, my main focus was the detail. Hopefully, you can see the whole picture and make up the detail yourself.

There were many guesses on this drawing. Guesses from all over the place. Objects, maps, patterns, different animals and many more ideas.

The Image in this drawing is a Leopard. A lot of people were guessing a form of feline/cat.

I never want to tell you the answer at the beginning or I’ll ruin the fun of the art. As you can see if you have been following for a while, you make guesses and over time you get hints. Eventually, you have an idea of what I’m drawing.

If there is anything I can do to improve my posts, let me know.

I’m not going to tell you what’s going on. I could, but I’m not going to. Use your imagination and create your own picture.

I did the same thing with my Fox drawing, here is the link. Take a look if you would like.

https://chaoticshapes.com/2017/06/15/fox/

What does that brain of yours see. All of you will see something different. What you see is what the image is.

Enjoy the picture as you please, thank you for taking a look at my work.

Have a great day everyone!

Almost finished, a little more.

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This is the progress of how far I got on Monday. I flipped the drawing upside down and colored it in.

If I reach my hand all the way across ill smear the colors together.

So far it’s turning out. How I said in the last post, I’m hoping the eyes turn out. If they do the picture will turn out, the way I imagined.

Looking at the picture as of right now, what do you see?

Remember to look at the patches of color. The colors make up each part of the drawing. createing the whole picture.

Take your time to observe, there is no rush.

I’m thinking either today or Monday I’ll Finish the drawing, it depends on my speed.

Have a great day everyone!

 

 

 

 

Progress on drawing

 

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This is how far I got on Thursday. I also worked on it a little bit last night.

It’s coming along quite well at the moment. I’m just hoping the eyes turn out the way I imagine. Me saying it has eyes is a little hint in a way. It’s something living then.

The different shades of colors separate each part of the drawing. Look at it closely and look at each patch of color and try to make up the drawing.

Take your time and don’t rush.

Take a guess after looking for a while.

What do you see?