Quote #73

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Do you ever feel nervous or anxious in your own skin?

If the answer is yes.

Then this you that seems to be you.

Might not be the real you that you are.

Or possibly you are living within a false reality.

A reality you accidentally manifested.

By entering a reality you do not wish to be in.

You become anxious and nervous.

There is no reason to be anxious or nervous.

If you are anxious or nervous then this you that they say is you is not yourself.

To be yourself is to be completely comfortable in your own skin.

Listen to your inner voices and your true self will speak to your soul.

Remember to keep being you.

Instead of being a you that everyone tells you to be.

Who has the right to tell you who to be beside you?

Live this life or this life will live through you.

Humans tend to get worked up easily.

Falling into a negative reality of life.

That was never wished for.

Everything is a world problem of some sort.

While actual world problems are occurring in this world.

What needs to be saved in this world is being ignored.

While everything that is being saved should be ignored.

I do not mean this literally.

This is an exaggeration of speech.

Not that anything should be ignored.

We as a collective need to take better care of ourselves.

Especially this mother earth we are living on.

We live in a world full of opposite actions in my eyes.

It tends to be easier to give up and to never try.

Then to attempt at all and put positive energy towards thyself.

Next time you focus on a current thought.

Remember it is nothing more than your imagination messing with you.

Everything is only seen as perceived.

A thought is only a thought because we are told what a thought is.

We would be uncertain with everything if we were not told anything.

I have something to tell everyone.

A perspective of some sort.

Imagine your mind is a sky full of clouds.

You are laying down in the grass, observing the clouds.

You are in your own mind observing your own thoughts and each thought is a cloud.

Your mind is constantly filtering thoughts from all around

The thoughts in your mind.

Are similar to the clouds in the sky.

Just let the clouds be.

Each cloud is a different moment lived in life.

Or a dream of some sort.

Endless clouds appear in your mind.

Attempt to not get caught up in a different moment in life besides this very moment.

Most live in other moments of life than this very moment.

Ignoring life itself attempting to fix past actions that have already occurred.

Ignore concentrating on any of the clouds.

Or you will end up ignoring life itself.

Focusing on a moment besides this very moment.

Ignoring what is happening right now.

Many overwhelm themselves.

Entering a depressive thought pattern.

Trying to fix the past.

All you can do is become the greatest you that there is.

Let your mind be free and think nothing.

Let the clouds flow and accept what you see and feel.

Remember you are only in so much control.

Keep the mind at ease.

That is unless you want to become unpleased.

There are many stages of “you” that will happen throughout this lifetime.

The challenge is to never give up on thyself.

Most give up on themselves.

Never seeing their greatest potential in this lifetime.

Anything is as possible as you make it.

If you decide to manifest nothing but negative thoughts.

Nothing but negative thoughts will appear in your reality.

The mind is a very tricky game.

We may all see a cloud.

Each cloud is a different thought within your mind.

A group of people will look at one cloud.

Within one cloud is one hundred different clouds.

In the end, the cloud perceived to be infinite clouds.

One idea or thought will mean something different to each soul.

We are all alike.

Then again all original in our own unique ways.

Ignore getting lost in the depths of your mind.

The mind can easily create new pathways of thinking.

I thought of this analogy a few hours ago.

Imagine a mouse or rat.

There are 3 tunnels the rat can enter.

The first tunnel is a negative pathway.

The second tunnel is a positive pathway

The third tunnel is the letting it be or ignoring pathway.

Imagine the rat is a thought.

The mind decides what pathway to lead down.

Imagine this occurring in your brain.

The story of the rat I just told.

This is my easiest way of explaining myself.

Each thought transcends to the next.

It is a maze of continuous thoughts.

If you continue to think a certain way or act a certain way.

Your mind can adapt over time and change is possible.

In the end, there can be infinite tunnels.

I decide to use these three tunnels.

Negative, positive and letting it be.

This is the simplest way for me to explain my thoughts.

One thought can destroy you or create you.

Be wise when letting your mind think.

Do not follow the wrong pathway of thinking.

If you think one thought it usually continues and continues until the thought is done being thought of.

Manifest light and love.

All it takes is looking within yourself.

If you look within yourself and believe enough.

Anything is possible no matter what anyone says.

You are better off acting instead of saying what you will do.

If you say what you will do in this world.

Then never do what you said.

That means you did not live up to your own words.

Do not doubt yourself and remember to believe in anything that you can imagine.

If anything manifests positive thoughts.

Attempt your best to walk down the “correct” path.

If anything you failed at being yourself.

Oh no.

You attempted to be yourself.

You failed at attempting to be the real you.

I recommend you be yourself for a day.

Do not knock it till you try it.

Think about it.

If you think about it and you do not want to be yourself I guess that is what you decide for yourself.

Remember this life is yours.

Anything is possible.

Do not blame others for your position in this life.

You are in control of your own destiny.

Do not let others control your life for you.

Otherwise, this life that you are living.

Is not the you that is here in this moment.

Use nothing but peace and love when dealing with others.

In the end, if people are negative.

Usually, they do not notice their negativity.

The individual is so caught up in being negative.

They cannot observe or see their negative self in action.

Your perception of your self-means more than the perception others have towards you.

Then again some people care what others think about them more than what the individual thinks about themselves.

All I care about is the perception of myself.

If someone wishes to think something negative or project negative energy towards me.

So be it.

With understanding you will come to the realization we are all idiots and no one is correct or incorrect.

I say this in peace.

Between life and death nothing matters but everything matters at the same time.

Ignore creating a life full of despair and pessimistic thinking.

Live this life and remember to be.

To be.

Or to not be.

There is no need to be battling and challenging each other’s egos.

Love is all we need.

Each day sets us up for more greatness and positivity.

It is just your perception of the world.

No matter what you do.

The sun will rise and show again.

However.

The next morning some people will never learn how to love.

No matter what you do.

Some will never understand.

That gives you no right to give up.

Believe in yourself and do not forget who the real you is.

Look within.

Meditate often and your inner self will speak to you.

When you meditate you can control and focus on your thought patterns.

Good luck with your journey, my friends.

I send nothing but love and positivity to everyone.

Remember to not get caught up in the thoughts of your mind.

Instead, it is wiser to be.

Similar to a tree.

Just be calm and observe.

Grow as you grow and create no control.

Ego is limited.

The individual is only limited to so much.

Lose the ego and you will find your soul.

Lose your soul and you will find your ego.

Everything is the imagination.

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Quote #64

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Do you live this life in love or fear?

Each moment of life is either appreciated or unappreciated.

Is each step in hesitation.

Or is each step with your arms wide open and ready for the next challenge that is thrown at you.

Doing nothing but use love to battle each moment.

With fear the problem enhances.

Fixing nothing but walking down the complete opposite path intended.

Do you love yourself?

Or do you fear yourself?

Is the energy you feel welcoming?

Or is your energy nothing but an abundance of fear.

Living life in love feels as if you have wings and you are set free into this world.

Anything is possible with love.

Fear is similar to having shackles or chains tying you down to the ground.

It feels as if quicksand is pulling you down.

Fear is fearing for the future and living in the past.

Love is living in the now and accepting everything and everyone for who they are.

The ego can be challenging to battle with.

Ego is fear.

Love is the soul.

The soul is wise.

The ego knows.

I am neither wise or know anything.

All I speak is my perspective.

I feel as if no one knows who they are at the end of the day.

Most say they know who they are. At the end of the day, no one really knows anything.

Sure what you think might be “correct” but how do you know?

The imagination is everything.

Live this life in fear or love.

With love, you will grow.

With fear, you will destroy what the future holds for you.

To live life in love expect to randomly laugh and smile at everything.

With love expect to skip and dance for no reason

Live life In fear and expect to frown at everything. Complaining about every little thing.

Living in the past only trying to correct something that has already happened that cannot be fixed.

Learn to build and grow.

Move on or live life in fear.

Everything cannot be under your control.

The only prison is mental slavery.

Prison is not a prison.

But prison is a prison.

We are all free.

Then again, no one is free.

Don’t play a victim in this life.

To pity yourself is the worst thing you can do.

It is all about the perspective.

Have the mind destroy you, or create yourself.

The ego seems to want to control most of everything.

Grow your tree with love and not fear.

The branches of your tree will grow in a weird unnatural direction with fear.

Looking like a knot of branches.

Tensing the soul.

If with love.

Your tree will be the most beautiful tree.

All the colors you can imagine and everything you wish to be.

With fear.

Expect the tree to “grow” the “incorrect” way.

With love, the people come together and get along.

With fear people separate themselves into groups and hide in isolation.

Love yourself and you will love everyone else around you.

Love is the highest frequency.

Without love, there will be no love to be found.

If you fear to love.

Start loving instead of fearing everything.

It is quite easy to change the pathways in the mind.

It just takes a lot of the mindset and brain power.

With love anything is possible.

Living life in fear you will never attempt your best or be your best version of thyself.

Love unites the people and shows the true beauty of this world.

One million people could attempt a good deed.

Then there is that 1 person who stands out more than the one million people.

One action of negativity will be noticed more than one million actions of kindness.

People tend to focus their energy towards the negative instead of the positive.

Humans are something else.

We love violence and hatred.

It is as if we crave negative energy and we feed off of negative energy.

Creating everyone into an even angrier person.

Where is the love?

Love is the only thing that will unite the people.

Stop fussing and fighting.

Learn how to just get along with one another.

If you can’t respect another person.

I doubt you even respect yourself.

No one is worth more or better than another.

We are all equal and all one.

Created from the same energy source.

One love.

I wish for nothing but love and positivity for all the souls reading this.

Only you will know what is best for you.

In the correct moment in time, everything will align the way it is supposed to.

Just remember to never give up on yourself.

If you do. Expect nothing but the same cycle of life.

If you are here “now” you can always become greater “now.”

You are not who you are right now.

But then again, you are.

The future you can be anything.

Manifest what you wish to become.

Today is only here.

Tomorrow is unknown.

The choice is yours.

Live this life in fear.

Or live this life in love.

Love is the only option in my eyes.

I send love to all and may we all love each other once and for all.

Remember to grow with love and ignore the fear.

The imagination is quite the powerful tool.

Don’t have the mind override you.

Quote #59

 

59I should have done that.

I could have done that.

I would have done that.

All of these were in the past tense. As if you are regretting the future.

The current moment is wasted thinking about another moment in time besides the current moment.

Regretting the past moment, wishing you woulda, coulda or shoulda.

All time is now, so you better start sooner than later.

Don’t attract negative energy or thoughts.

The negative thoughts will consume each section of your brain till you can’t take it anymore.

To suffer and manifest everything in a negative outlook is the scariest thing you can do.

Doubt is similar to a monster or the subconscious, destroying your soul and person.

Doubt is the voices of others opinions overriding your brain.

Creating you into the you that isn’t you. But a you of another you and not the you that you are.

A false manifestation within the mind and it was nothing but a thought of energy.

Not even a thought of yours, but another.

You don’t need anyone’s validation to be you.

The mind is in control of thyself.

Don’t be a slave to your own mind.

Each thought and idea is the imagination.

Why do I say this?

Well, the only thing we possess is the “Now.”

Everything else is similar to a movie or story.

There’s this story and within a few more stories of the story, the original story is probably completely different than the original.

“Drama.” Is a word best to explain storytelling.

If you are saying things out loud to others.

Make sure to resist attracting any negative energy or it will come back to you.

The ones who talk behind your back usually have the scariest karma to imagine.

Be one faced. Not two, three or even four-faced.

One faced people possess the highest energy.

Be yourself and don’t be scared of what others will think.

The soul is more of who you are compared to the skin you possess.

Don’t look worthy for others, but be worthy and loyal to thyself.

This human form is art itself.

A manifestation of our own individual thoughts.

Turn that thought into reality and it is “art.”

We are all pieces of art. If that wasn’t true, we’d all be a big rock with no emotions.

A big boulder that does nothing.

Every amount of energy is art in one form or another.

Art is something that wasn’t real and is brought into this reality of life.

You could think to brush your teeth.

After this thought, you could act or ignore what was thought.

If you apply energy towards the thought within your mind.

You have literally created magic.

Manifestation itself.

Boom. That’s how easy it can be.

“Art.” Hahahahaha. 😉

Manifestations can be simple, advanced, or life-changing.

What does the term manifestation mean?

Well, when you created a thought within your mind and put mass amounts of energy towards this thought.

That’s a manifestation.

You can’t give up or put doubt in a single manifestation.

If so it will end up like every other thought you didn’t bother to take a hold of and listen to.

All you have to do is believe

This is when you start to follow your “intuition.”

The inner voices will guide you to where you need to go.

I shoulda, coulda, woulda.

Hatred only arises when you are full of hatred yourself.

Don’t get worked up. Instead just be a greater you than who you were yesterday.

Each day you create the path and it can be a beautiful path of many negatives and positives.

Or a path of pure destruction. Only focusing on the negatives and being quite selfish at the end of life.

Many people dream of possessing the life you possess.

Don’t be so selfish with your thoughts

Your life probably isn’t as bad as you think it is.

I have a roof, running water, food, and somewhere to sleep every night.

Without worrying about the next day.

Of where I shall go.

I’m happier than happy.

That’s just me.

Live your life in love and ignore the haters.

Hatred is your worst enemy.

The energy of hatred is created from within.

Hatred is a manifestation of art from within.

Emotion is art and art is pure emotion.

Don’t regret anything.

And say I coulda, woulda or shoulda.

Work on yourself and manifest for a greater version of thyself.

People can easily point out the good in life.

When it comes down to thyself it’s difficult to see the flaws and demons.

The moment people are arguing they know everything and all things.

The demons and flaws of thyself aren’t existent. Only the flaws and demons of others exist within our mind.

No one sits down and meditates to think about thyself actions.

If you told me a few years ago. I’d be where I’m now doing what I’m doing now.

I’d just laugh at you.

I’d say this isn’t me.

But in all reality this is me.

What I was before this moment wasn’t me.

We learn and grow each day.

Just make sure you are the you that’s you and only be you.

Be aware of thyself.

I observe the world and think this about a lot of people and myself.

Is everyone actually real or is everything an act of their ego.

Not all will understand.

Live your dream and don’t help others with theirs. This is your life, right?

We are all a soul unable to see ourselves living within this world of many other souls.

It is as if we all know everything and anything besides what’s going on with thyself.

All quite alike, but in the end all so very different.

Negative is easier to observe than the positive.

Positivity happens and no one says Thank you.

It is only when something is “wrong” or “incorrect” that someone speaks.

The rest is silence.

The people make more ruckus than the earth itself.

Manifest the best you can.

Nothings stopping you but you.

Remember that.

 

Quote #57

57There’s no incorrect or correct. We’re told what everything is so we just agree and continue following the traditions and cultures.

To never create or to find ourselves. Create this life and don’t decide to go down the predestined path.

Things are just the way they’re because that’s the way they’re.

The people discuss and agree with the thoughts.

This is a complex but simple way of explaining it.

If we want to “know” or “learn” anything. We end up asking someone else or looking up the answer.

Is the answer we’re given the actual answer?

Or.

Is it just the way it’s supposed to be?

That saying you always here. I don’t enjoy this saying, but it’s thrown around quite often.

“It’s what it’s.”

What is it?

It’s what?

Life consists of “rules.” Also, many things are already identified for us.

As if everything was already answered and everything is already here.

These words I write and think are the words I use because they’re “correct.”

That’s the way it’s supposed to be.

If all of these words I was saying acquired no context, then I wouldn’t be speaking with them.

There’s a purpose for everything possibly. Or maybe that’s what we’re told and that’s the way it’s supposed to be.

I’m neither incorrect or correct in anything I say.

Instead, a book or another person will tell me if I’m correct or incorrect.

I’m not sure if 1 human is incorrect or correct.

We don’t know the answers we have conclusions to back up our answers.

We all just follow the “laws/rules.”

Every subject possesses its own answers and rules.

In a way, this creates us into drones or robots doing the same things every day.

Answering all the same questions with the same answers.

Nothing “new.”

A life of the constant and no change.

With the imagination, anything is possible.

There’s no “incorrect” or “correct” in art or using the imagination.

Sure you might create or imagine a mistake, but it’s not necessarily “wrong.”

When creating art you’re never wrong or incorrect. There’s no one correct way to be creating.

All of what you do is correct and in the process, everything aligns the final creation into one.

All people and artists should have their own style.

I believe everything is art and all things are art.

Something that is an “illusion” within the mind brought into this “reality” of a life.

“Art”

It’s all from the individual’s perspective.

I’ll explain my side, hahaha.

I’m neither correct or incorrect. It’s whatever you want to think.

Everyone believes things differently than others.

No one posses a correct or incorrect life.

All of this is a part of the journey.

I never actually say what I’m thinking when speaking to most individuals.

I feel as if I will be too complex or what I wish to say will have too much information.

I over think things a lot. But not in a sickening way. Just with curiosity. The imagination is quite crazy.

I don’t believe some things that people tell me so I go out into this big word and adventure for myself.

We don’t all possess the same ideologies.

I keep my mouth shut most of the time.

Art is a form of expression. You may say what you wish, but realize there’s an intention behind everything, even if you don’t think about it.

Words add up to emotions. Similar to creating a calculation of numbers.

The numbers are words. The words are numbers. Everything is emotion and energy. The final outcome of each equation will be different. The outcome is emotion.

This might be a confusing concept to wrap your mind around. Try your best.

Instead, I’ll speak if talked to. I don’t like to cause a ruckus or negative emotions.

I avoid harming others and try to not offend anyone.

The intelligent speak and the wise listen.

Usually, I’ll be quiet and say nothing.

The ego is always correct. A war of the egos, hahahaha.

Keep me out of that. I’ll just let the fool continue screaming over their own voice in stupidity.

The voice of thyself echoing over and over.

Imagine seeing a reflection of your idiotic self. Would you be happy with this reflection or concerned?

If you don’t agree with my beliefs or ideologies that’s okay.

I don’t want to hurt or kill you.

All I wish for is everyone to have love within their hearts.

I’ll just fabricate what I wish to say.

So in a sense, I’m “fake” but not. Most just can’t handle the truth.

This means everyone else could possibly be acting fake as well.

This life is very ironic and confusing.

If you attempt to be who you really are the whole world talks.

Everyone has an opinion don’t have their reality of a thought destroy you.

If you say nothing and follow the others, all will continue following and say nothing.

Similar to a flock of sheep. Be the black sheep and be yourself. Don’t follow the others.

Your life is a lie.

Do individuals fabricate their words. I feel as many of us do.

Act in ego or act in love.

Love accepts. Ego challenges.

Ego is acceptable in certain situations.

My best way to explain this “correct” and “incorrect” thought is this.

Ego.

We’ll all think and believe differently.

We’ll all eat and drink differently.

We’ll all follow and appreciate different things.

We’re all different.

Did I happen to say the word different at all?

Different.

I could keep on going for a while, but I think you’ll understand now.

Let’s say tomorrow the whole world explodes.

Tonight was your last night to ever live.

No one was “correct” or “incorrect”

You’re only within the reality that you imagine.

So you’ll transcend wherever that’s.

Sure I’ll go to hell, she’ll go to heaven.

All the sinners will be put in darkness and have nowhere to go.

I could care less, take me where I go.

Who knows what will happen.

Beliefs shouldn’t separate us.

We’re all idiots as we’re all smart.

All “correct”, and “incorrect.”

I bet we all go to the same place.

I’m a sinner and so are you.

If life was perfect, nothing would be here.

Neither would you. Life is all about the challenges and rebuilding yourself.

Life is unpredictable. Anything is possible.

Death is just a thought. I don’t feel death.

I’ll worry about this life and manifest what I wish in this life and not the next life.

Life is nothing but a dream.

Dream it how you want it.

The destination after this.

Where that’s I have no idea and I don’t know if anyone does.

The imagination is quite crazy.

Isn’t it?

The way of life or however you decide to live is not the same for all of us.

One life is never ideal for all souls.

Now I leave you here to ponder and think.

Is this who I really am?

Or am I living within a false reality?

Late 20th Birthday to me! -(02/01/1998)- “Special” -[Question and Answer]- Ask me anything you wish….

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I’m an artist that lives in North America, in the United States. I live in a small town of not that many individuals. About 16,000 people so not a lot, but then again it’s a good amount. Each person is like a ghost walking throughout the streets, you never really know each individual, but can observe and feel the presence of their energy, each person having their own aura.

I’ve been creating art for the past year now, in a serious way. When people ask me “What do you do for a living.” Well first off, that really shouldn’t matter, should it? I could be a bitter soul and full of hatred and have all the money/ fame in this world and nothing would change. I would still be who I’m today.

So my answer to this question.

“What do you do for a living.”

Well I breathe, just like everyone else does and I eat/ go to the bathroom. Oh and I sleep sometimes too. My point is, I’m nothing but human. I happen to make art for happiness and I’m lucky enough that I can make it into a career in the future. The goal is a full-time career, well that’s the dream.

This dream lies within my hands and the same with all the people reading this. It’s all of the energy put towards the craft, every little bit matters as much as the last bit. If it wasn’t for each transcending moment, you wouldn’t be here at this very moment. Every second put into my art means that much more of an improvement. Even if I “fail” at a drawing. It’s still an improvement.

I look at my art as play and not work, you don’t get paid for something you enjoy. Then this is called “work.”

You only get paid for something you don’t enjoy because then there is no need to be doing it, if the only reason is for the money and nothing else. Then it’s nothing more than a duty.

No one pays the children to go have fun and run around outside. So, therefore everything I do is out of my imagination and nothing else. It’s all just for fun. All being an act of play at the end.

All of the money is extra, the thing I care most about. Is the energy people give me towards my artwork. The expressions as well, So I guess the new energy and the love that art creates in this world.

It brings a whole new energy to this world. We all have different energies to offer the world. Remember to not be so locked up and share your state of mind in this world. Even if hurts, in the end, it’s better to be a “real” you than a “fake” you.

Here I sit typing up this blog, aging every second that passes by. To never grasp any moments that pass by but only to live in each moment the best I can. The imagination lets you “remember” past times. This is nothing but your imagination, all of these mind games I tell you.

Doing this can be scary or pleasurable. It’s always the moments with the most energy that you never forget in your lifetime. The happiest and the saddest moments, usually those moments are imprinted on the brain.

It’s the way you stand back and observe each moment, there is yin and yang in all situations. The individual just needs to see the deeper message or meaning. We need more of this yang. The greater energy out of the two. Positive energy will force out negative, it’s just more negative energy is flowing around this world at the moment.

It’s all on each individual to create each moment.

No one is perfect, I always attempt my best with my imagination. I don’t always create the piece of art I manifested within my mind, but I’m happy with it. The next time you can improve even more, learn to manifest even greater.

It’s best to live in the moment you physically are in, at this very moment and no other moment. If you live in a different moment of time and your mind isn’t even in the “now”, you can’t even appreciate what you see at this very moment. Destroying the purpose of life in a way. All of this is very ironic.

Don’t live in regret and choose to live in the “now.” To dwell on past moments is much of a bad idea. Nothing can be fixed or changed, just reflected upon.

As I stare into the distance, it has been a year and one week since I decided to become an “Artist.”

Yes, this is a picture of me, I don’t post pictures of myself quite often. Here is a glimpse of my backside, hahaha. 😉 You get a little picture of my side face.

Now here I’m at this very moment typing this. If it wasn’t for the moment in my mind, that I decided I wanted to go full out on this “art’ thing. I wouldn’t be here at this very moment typing this. It all would be nothing but a “dream.”

Here I’m happier than I was last year, many things positive and negative occurred within this year of my life.

I really don’t wish to speak of myself, I wouldn’t know what to tell you. I never really have anything to say, unless I’m talked to or if people ask me things.

Yes, I do talk a lot but most of the time to myself. As we all do, I probably just do it more often than most so, hahahaha.

With time and experience, the universe will create my future, all I have to do is play with the universe and not give up. Listen for the signs when they’re there and follow through. Don’t ignore my intuition, heart, and soul. For these things will truly guide me throughout my life. It’s all in the energy you’re feeling in the moment that creates the next moment.

“Chaotic Shapes” aka “Brandon Knoll” is signing off here, ask me anything you please. It can be something as simple as 1, 2, 3. Or possibly a question as complex as the creation of this universe. I don’t know the literal answer, hahaha. I just mean a question that’s very complex and mysterious. Love to have conversations with people who are interested in the same thought patterns as me.

I’m ready for all people and types of questions, don’t be too scared to ask anything. Nothing is too weird/strange or abnormal for me. I accept it all, hahaha.

I’m no greater than you, all of us are equal. All I happen to do is create some art and besides that, I’m a happy and humble soul.

All I wish for is peace, love, and positivity from each person.

Ask any question as you please.

Go……..

 

Quote #40

 

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Brandon Knoll, that’s what happens to be my name. Yes but that is nothing but a name, for the name means nothing in a sense. Besides for an Identification, usually, the last name will identify you more than the first.

There are many individuals called Brandon in this world, but not many named knoll.

Don’t forget the middle name. Why have a middle name? My guess is to identify each “family.” To know who’s in what family tree compared to the rest. Brothers, sisters, aunts, uncles etc……..

My answer for whom this Brandon happens to be can be summed up in one single word. That word is “Art.”

My purpose in this world is “Art.” This literally isn’t me, but more of a character in play in an act.

When making art, you only think to make the art. Otherwise, the art wouldn’t happen. But why does the mind ask thyself to create art? What purpose is art created for, why create this thing called art?

Well if you really think about it, there’s no answer for anything. Just an idea created in a sentence/structure and then agreed upon by some people. Creating the world and the “answers” we have now. The ideas and everything that is happening now.

There’s no real answer to anything or perfect ideal life to live. The map of life doesn’t hold an X marks the spot.

Life is happening to you, create yourself and explore what you desire. Create the destiny you vision to live. Don’t just be handed ideas and go with them, see what you truly love and desire.

I’ve finally found something that I truly enjoy and love. Each moment, creating art I cherish. A very spontaneous moment.

Most other things to me seem like a competition to everyone. In “life” I’ve always felt at a competition against everyone with everything. Lately not so much.

Each person racing against themselves, to never have an answer or time to relax. The race continues every moment and second. Whoever can advance to the top of the mountain first, is the “successful” one. The rest below the mountain, happen to be lower ranked than the top. This is much of a “monopoly life.”

As I look out across the whole world, each human to me looks the complete same but then again not. For me, the energy of each person is read and the vibe of your personality is vibrating off each individual. Similar to a temperature or frequency of some sort. A literal energy source.

I Could care less what you’re wearing, the color of your skin or the language you happen to speak. All I happen to care about is the soul within the skin. The internal you and not the external, for it’s only a designated character in play with some skin attached. Only “you” or “thyself” truly knows how this “I” feels, to enter my mind and think what I think would only be a nightmare to many.

The mind of an artist is quite horrifying. In a peaceful way and a dark evil way. When you look at art it’s both positive and negative in its ways. There’s “sad/dark art” and then all the other kinds. I feel as if all artists make “sad/dark art” at least one point in their lives.

A lot of artists are “crazy.” The brain of an artist is wired and designed is such a weird way. Things are thought and created that are unbelievable except out of 100% pure imagination. My mind has these ideas that I feel like only I have thought of. Things so crazy and ridiculous most wouldn’t understand them at all. Unless somehow I could transfer them into this “real world” of a matrix.

Art is nothing but pure creation and invention. A new birth or child into the world, each having their own uniqueness. I always tell people my art is similar to my “children.”

If my art were to be damaged it’s as if a part of me is damaged. Kinda like one of those voodoo dolls with the needles. The person feels the pain when jabbed. In a literal sense for me as an artist.

Few have asked me, “What would you do if I ripped one of your drawings or burned one?”

I know this isn’t in a disrespectful way. Just out of curiosity. But like I said before there’s no real answer to anything.

Just ideas or thoughts. Unless living in that very moment. No one would know at all, but could only make an assumption.

Well, I would probably have to take time to transfer the moment and then ponder on it. What if I just said, “You just killed one of my children?” Or maybe I would laugh in a satanic laughter of joy and appreciate you burned my artwork.

Everything is meant to be born then eventually end, one moment or another. So I guess I would have to just breathe and tell myself.

“I can always create another one.”

It’s more about the moments than the final product. The journey than the destination. Yes, the final piece is a beautiful sight, but without all the little moments the bigger picture wouldn’t be here. Creating the moment as of right “now.”

This “now” I speak of, is the moment you’re reading this “now.” All you have to do is cherish each moment and life won’t be that gruesome but yes it gets very hard at times. You just have to push through those times and become the greatest version of yourself.

Through this short life, I have lived so far, art has found me and I didn’t find the art. The art was destined to happen, so I can either give up. Or watch it all happen right in front of my eyes and possibly never see each moment ever again. Live this life of a dream and not live life in regret.

With all other things in life, it all feels like a competition besides art. Art gives you that freedom to do whatever you want and you can do it wherever too. There are no rules of any sort and the mind is free.

There’s no one answer to anything in art. Anything is correct and nothing is wrong, it’s just all in the perspective.

Art is for everyone, it’s just most don’t accept art, so if you don’t accept it then you can’t make it.

Just lose the fear of failure and you can accomplish anything in this world.

If you were to ask me, I’d say vision and create your own future. You don’t always have to listen to instructions from others.

The craziest adventures are always the ones people never tell you to go on. Sometimes this adventure of a life is quite lonely, but remember you always have yourself.

Not all people will understand your journey, but that’s okay it’s more for you to understand. It’s your life, isn’t it? Who posses and carries this soul through this body. The mover and guider of where you choose to go.

Each thought manifest on a short scale or long scale of some degree. It can be as simple as going to the store or brushing your teeth. It’s all a thinking process, you don’t just brush your teeth or go to the store you think to do these things.

Similar to all other things. You only think to do every other action and thing in this life. Think it and then do it. All being a small manifestation of some sort.

To manifest something huge and unbelievable takes a lot of time and energy, but it’s possible, anything is. If anyone tells you it’s not, well ignore the naysayer. They must be having a bad day or something.

Don’t let the negating energy consume the positive energy out of you. To control your energy is probably the hardest thing to do in the whole world.

Literally, you’re in control of this body and all of its actions. There’s no puppet behind this mask of yours.

Be good to yourself and you’ll be good to others.

To this day I still question why art decided to find me. Don’t know why I create, it kinda just happened. Now here “I’m” this very moment. Very happy for this blessing. Life’s experiences are priceless you can’t buy life it’s given to you. Internal feelings can never be bought, but only worked on. External things are purchased.

Everyone’s choices are different every day leading into a different journey for all. No one to ever be correct or wrong, all just here learning experiences together. Lived through thyself, and only thyself. Many will mislead you and misguide you into the wrong direction. Don’t let others opinions of you become your reality, create your own reality.

Art has helped save my soul from this world and art helps me heal when needed, not putting negative energy into this world.

All I wish for is love, peace, and positive vibes. Not war, hatred and negative souls.

Accept yourself and appreciate yourself. Hug yourself and feel the energy flow throughout your whole body. Appreciate each moment as it passes and you’ll realize the purpose of life is just to enjoy the short memories as they pass by. To never capture again. A living movie that you can’t rewind or fast forward.

Now as I leave you here reading this, here are the last words I have to say.

“Art is within my bones, imagination and creation flow throughout me. The energy within my bones is pure artistic energy and nothing else. If you were to see the colors of my bones/aura it would be similar to the rainbow. Every energy, color, and emotion you can vision. Snap my bones and creative juice will ooze out of them. There’s literally a created substance/juice flowing throughout my whole body.”